Juxtaposition

I just love this word. I wanna say it....a lot. It has several meanings, one is placing two things side by side, or the state of 2 things being close together. I like the meaning, too, mainly because it is something we humans all desire, closeness, to something, someone. I believe God put that innate longing in us, mainly for Him. Some of us spend a lifetime searching, and sometimes finding something or someone to be close to. Here's my question, can we be close to Him and the object we choose to yoke, all at the same time? Is the condition of the juxtaposition relative to our position? That just came right out of my head, whoa. Let me rephrase, is our relationship to our object relative to our closeness with Him? I think so. I am answering my own questions here. He wants us to be close to Him, yes, but He wants us to have good close relationships here on earth too, right? He is a jealous God, remember.........so how jealous. I think it was Paul who said that it would be better to be like him, meaning single I assume. I am sure, very sure this is a more dedicated way to live. I just couldn't. My instinctive desire to physically belong to someone is pretty strong. Yet, there are definite advantages to being single, spiritually speaking. The cares of life are completely altered once husbands and childen come along (singular on" husbands" for me!.) My prayer time now, honestly, is a sacrifice, when before, it came much easier. I am sure He understands, and hopefully takes in to account our responsibilites here on earth. After all, He allowed us these beautiful children, families, right?

Auto pilot

Isn't auto pilot a strange concept? What an ENORmous responibility to just turn over to machines! But we do it everyday, in a different way, in our own lives. Computers, phones, ipods, video games, television, movies. Our brains could be on autopilot every second if we wanted. Do we? I sometimes just want to turn everything off to hear the birds sing, insects chirp, wind blow, God speak. Our modern conveniences are awesome  tools for communication, and I couldn't imagine life without them. I just hope they don't overshadow my mind, who I really am. I struggle with quiet time. My world is hectic, even chaotic at times, so why would I ignore something that could guide me into the right decisions to make? I am just realizing where a lot of my stress comes from, it is simply confusion. Listening to music, when I should just find a place of peace/prayer. Nick laughs at me sometimes, because I am sitting in the bathtub at 2 in the afternoon. He says, "Having a bad day?" But it's my quiet/ me time. You gotta find it somewhere. Along with hearing God's voice, we may even hear our own. He made us in His image, so we should trust what he gave us, intuition/instinct. I was reading about the tsunami of '04, and how that few wild animals were killed. If that was true, why didn't people feel those same feelings of retreat? The scarry thing is, maybe they could have, but life is so distracting. Which makes me wonder, how is it worth it.......if it kills you.